Friday, October 19, 2012

~* All By Myseeeeeeelf.... *~

That's right, the hubs is on staff duty tonight, and he's not expecting to be home until somewhere close to 10am tomorrow.

Usually, I wouldn't be thrilled about this. Tonight...well, tonight I kinda need my space.

This has been a disappointing week, to put it bluntly. Monday was great, as I've mentioned. But as I also mentioned, I knew it wasn't going to last. Tuesday wasn't terrible, but unremarkable. Wednesday was horrid, and Thursday was just...disappointing.

Let me back up. Tuesday really wasn't anything special. Wednesday, I had a late client, and the hubs was late getting home. I made dinner, and he had a friend of his come over. Naturally, I shared our meal. I was pretty much left out of the conversation, so I excused myself and left them to do their "guy" thing. Next thing I know, the hubs decides to show off his guns. In the bedroom. I HATE having people- especially people I don't know- in our bedroom, and he seems to forget that it is OUR bedroom. We've had that conversation more than once. Then, his friend left a little after 9pm. I had to be up at 4am, so I went to go to bed. I gave the hubs about a half hour before I started to wonder what he was up to. He was on the freakin' computer. I couldn't even get a half hour with him before I needed to sleep, but he had time to fuck around on the damn computer. I was livid.

I got over it yesterday, as I usually do given enough time. I suggested we set aside some time for a lunch date next week. He countered with a promise to make the evening better. Shoulda known better. He fell asleep at 7:30pm. I woke him up at about 8pm and practically begged him to spend an hour with me since I was leaving at 5am and wouldn't see him til sometime Saturday. Nope, no chance. He couldn't stay awake.

It's so disheartening to know that if it's something involving his buddies, he can stay awake without a problem, but unless we're having sex, I can't get him to stay awake for one effing hour.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

~* Funny How Things Work Out... *~

Just yesterday, I had decided to just start taking care of myself again, and letting everyone else take care of themselves. And I was on a really good 8ish-hour roll.

Then the hubs came home. And we just clicked! Like magic! I know it won't last, but the realization that maybe when I start taking care of myself, the rest will fall into place is pretty overwhelming right now. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm more than a little bit of a control freak, and I like to know that everything is done and clean and in its place, and I have always believed that if I don't get it done, and NOW, it won't ever get I'm in awe right now.

The hubs called to let me know when he was on his way home from work, and I started dinner. I didn't wait for him to get home- I guess he got stuck in traffic. I was almost finished my dinner before he made it home. He got his plate, cleaned up the dishes, and sat down to talk. We didn't have a really in-depth conversation about anything, but we managed to talk. We even managed to laugh! Like, he almost fell off the couch and choked on his food laughing!

After dinner, he fell asleep for a little bit, and I didn't worry about it. I was busy FB messaging with a friend of mine. When he woke up, he took out the trash and finished loading the dishwasher...and we had some *ahem* adult time!

I've decided not to over-analyze this one, and just enjoy it. Days like yesterday make all the rest of the crap worthwhile.

Monday, October 15, 2012

~* Gettin' Back In The Groove *~

Another successful family visit down!

The in-laws came to visit on Thursday and left yesterday morning, and it has been like Christmas around here. They sure came bearing gifts! They brought some stuff from the hubs' room at their house, stuff for the dog, clothes and a gorgeous dresser for me, and a table for the hubs' garage. They never let us pay for anything, and this weekend wasn't any different. I ate out so much over the weekend that all I really want to do today is eat salad and work out!

Which is a good thing, because I need to get back into my groove. The hubs and I haven't quite been able to click into place yet, but I need to get my own schedule back under control before I start to feel sick. I'm already feeling some physical side effects. It's  pretty crazy much getting thrown off can really affect my body. Some people are good at doing different things at different times of the days, but I'm a creature of routine. I know that sounds terribly boring, but it's true. I usually eat very well and work out regularly, and I get physically sick and really cranky when that changes.The hubs went back to work this morning, and I'm contemplating doing a bikini competition in February, so I'm more than ready to get back into it.

So, this morning started with an oatmeal pancake, clementines, coffee, and chocolate almond milk enjoyed do the soundtrack of the artillery impact zone behind the house. I'm going to do some studying, put my books on my brand new bookshelves (thanks to the in-laws!), and hit the gym. Who said Mondays always have to suck??
" Don't place your better days in the future."