Thursday, July 18, 2013

~* I *~

I am 30 years old.
I am 5'5ish, with blonde-ish reddish hair and blue/gray/green eyes.
I am 131lbs (today) with a body fat percentage of 21.6.
I have a love/hate relationship with my family.
I have been engaged 3 times, married twice, and divorced 1 1/2 times.
I am a personal trainer, certified nutritionist, and seniors' fitness specialist.
I am driven by my passion for my job and a never-ending need to succeed.
I will never be good enough for myself.
I love what I do, and if I ever cease to love it, I will do something else.
I may never have children, and that's ok with me.
I get moody.
I get jealous.
I have trust issues.
I am a commitment-phobe.
I am terrified of birds, and drowning, and burning to death, and going blind.
I love music- all kinds, any kind. Well, almost any kind.
I am not religious, but will never tell you you're wrong for your beliefs.
I am both girly and tough.
I am a terrible jump-roper.
I am an awesome baker.
I like to paint.
I love the beach and all things summer-related.
I have no problem letting go. I pack light, and am sentimentally attached to virtually nothing.
I love polka dots.
I think a child's laughter is the most amazing sound in the world.
I hate being cold more than anything in the world.
I will treat you exactly the way you treat me.
I am a lover and a fighter. And a sarcastic bitch.
I will never feel the need to be better than you.
I will always feel the need to be better than myself.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

~* Changes Ahead *~

Wow, it's been a while!! I've been soooooo busy lately, I have completely neglected this blog. I'm sorry.

Work has been insanely awesome, and awesomely insane. Our manager's wife PCS'd to Kansas, so our head trainer took the management position. Leaving li'l ol' me in the head trainer position. It's been great and challenging, my schedule got crazy practically overnight. I'm working, actually putting in effort, a full 9 hours a day now, and I had to start working Fridays again. But this craziness has put me in the incredible position to be able to afford my own apartment!!!

J isn't thrilled about it, but he knows it needs to happen. We had a little heart to heart about it. We haven't been doing so hot, and the longer I stick around, the worse it's going to get. He knows I wasn't ready to be living with someone, it just happened out of circumstances. I told him the truth- my moving out isn't guaranteed to fix things, but it's not going to make them any worse either. So, the big day is in about a week and a half. I'd be moving this weekend, but I'll be in DE, helping the family move into a bigger place so they don't all kill each other (not even exaggerating).

Anyway, gotta get to work. I'll try to get back on track with this thing.
" Don't place your better days in the future."