Normally, I would be using the term stability in reference to training. Today, it's about my life. I just really want some stability, and it doesn't seem to be happening.
Let me rewind-
I don't remember if I mentioned this, but 3 weeks after I moved in with my roomie, she ended up under psych observation for 2 weeks. After hearing all the stories, I chalked it up to a misunderstanding. Someone took something out of context, and she ended up having to pay for it. Weird, but ok. It happens.
Once. It happens once.
She's under psych observation again. I don't really buy into "coincidence", but her situation isn't really my concern. I'm upset because she's been there since last Thursday. I didn't find out until yesterday. I came home on Sunday morning, like I do every week, and she was gone. I texted to see if maybe her work shifts changed, and she never got back to me. Then I woke up Monday morning to see her ex boyfriend's car out front. He stayed in the house, overnight, with just me and the dogs, and nobody bothered to tell me!! That is not ok in my book. I live here, I think I have a right to know who is coming and going, and when, and why. Apparently, nobody else feels the same.
So, now I'm uncomfortable being here. Plus J has been asking me to move in for a while. It's inevitable. He's gonna be lucky #3 one day, and maybe my current roomie situation is a sign that I'm not supposed to be here. I don't believe in coincidence, I do believe in signs. I'm terrified, but I'm excited too. Everything happens for a reason, right? I'm just tired of moving. I'd like to be able to make a place "home" for a while.
*Sigh* Who has a truck to help me move?